I went for a run today to find relief from my own struggles I’m dealing with right now. I’ve been running a lot lately and I find that as I run more often and consistently, the usual trail gets easier and my pace is beginning to pick up. It encourages progress! But after the run was over i’m back to my own struggles and I just don’t have the energy to deal with them, so I’m putting them aside for the day. Or I could give them to God but I just end up taking them back, over and over again. I know God is ultimately in control but I feel that I have responsibility when it comes to certain things and I feel unsettled because I have no idea what to do. Part of me today was running from my feelings because going through them right now feels like I’m never going to reach beyond it. I just feel like God is distant in all of this and I don’t see revelation or anything. But even when there is nothing in sight, I will keep pressing forward… especially if nothing articulate comes to mind. Sigh. I just want some answers and a clear mind.